A Life I Call My Own

Coco my baby whom I miss so much :( finally turned 1 yesterday. (Taken with instagram)

The birthday Girl :) Beba I love you (Taken with instagram)

Sports Authority :) (Taken with instagram)

So Far So Good…

A lot has changed like I said on my last post. Things have been really good to be honest :), things between me and my boyfriend & family have been nothing but sunshine & gum drops lol. Things really couldn’t be better, yeah it has been tough some how because I haven’t spoken to my family like my mom or brother. Only reason I haven’t spoke to them is because of all the things they were saying about me which isn’t right whatsoever. I understand your mad at me but still like wtf? how could you say all those things it’s not true or nice of you to say things like that no matter how mad you are. I understand I did my wrong for the way I left but I did what I had to do to feel myself again. I just felt so trapped and pressured at home, I couldn’t be myself anymore. I was whole different person around my family because who I was wasn’t approved. I’m just glad things here are looking good & getting better as the weeks pass :). I know for a fact that I’m going to make better decisions in my life from this moment on I’m not going to let someone ruin my life all because they aren’t happy with what they see, shhhhhhhit like come on now let me be who I want to be if I fail that’s on me but I know I’m going to succeed :). One things for sure ‘m not gonna shut out my family from my life forever or for a year because I can’t forget that 1. They’re still my family & 2. They have been the ones taking care of me all these years. Work has been good but searching for a new job is what I’m trying to go for right now somewhere close to my area. Rockville is a mission on bus to Sports Authority, I just need some where close by with less trips lol. I’m just thankful for the things GOD has given me & the people he has let back into my life or more likely the ones that never truly left <3. One thing I can also say is that I’m thankful for my goofy boyfriend lol :). He means a lot to me yeah we’ve had our ups and downs but hey that’s what makes a relationship stronger & see how far you two will actually go for one another. & how much you guys feel for each other. Just don’t let them fool you, you’ll know when somethings real or NOT. I love my baby so much though just glad things are better now. Can’t blame me for loving & trying hard to pass all these obstacles for someone I’ve cared & known for so long. 6 years you know lol :P. Well thats my Re-Cap for today jejejeje bye everyone :)

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Good Morning & Happy Birthday Too Me :) (Taken with instagram)

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Baby Jhenardy :) (Taken with instagram)

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Upset.

Been feeling so down since yesterday afternoon after what happened. Honestly I don’t know what to think or believe about that situation like it bothers me so much & I don’t know how to handle it anymore. Love conquers all right? Or is it something we all just say to ourselves all so we won’t give in…I love my baby & this family of mine so much and I can’t see myself without them. All I can do at this point is just be strong and keep my head up you know. I can’t let these small issues get to me and destroy or interfier with what I have now. Somethings for sure that I won’t give up so easily I may be hurt because of certain things but I just got to handle things with calm & not flip out like a maniac :/. I just hope it doesn’t stay like this for to long & hopefully have some type of reassurence (sigh). Can’t imagine myself without any of them in my life, especially Joey :(. Grrr the things we do for the ones we love & the distance we would go for them. Only time can tell like I said before because if it wasn’t for time & patience I wouldn’t stand where I am now with him. All I can say at this point is I’m really happy to have him back & call him MINE